365

By Shaire Blythe

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

 

365

 

365 lonely nights, I counted,

The number is rising,

Tomorrow will be 366,

 

I understand you have other business to tend to,

I wish myself could fit in between you surviving and being only human,

 

Is it me being selfish or you?

You never came through, so why give my heart up again?

 

I rather stay, laid up here, leave me untouched,

Pacing alone, No one to hold, Then give myself up,

If you create this space, I might as well claim that I am single,

That’s just how I feel, Can’t even tell me how you feel,

 

Day 366, Nothing has seemed to change,

Filling me up with words, but those are only words,

Is it that hard to get a little action to back ‘em up?

 

I shouldn’t have to be going through this,

I always put myself through this shit,

Stationed on the front lines of a battlefield, but you’re nowhere to be seen,

 

This here’s one-sided, forever one-sided,

Want to feel loved, but I cannot get it,

 

Want that connection, Tired of being faithful, Tired of even trying,

When I cannot get it returned,

 

Making me more stressful, Charming me on bullshit,

It's time I set some new terms,