Gone Before You

By Shaire Blythe

Thursday, March 20, 2014

 

Gone Before You

 

It’s all coming back to me, the insecurity,

I’m sorry,

I thought I had figured me out, But I was so wrong,

 

I don’t understand why I let it all get to me,

I had it all planned, but it became history,

I am so ashamed that we have turned out to be this way,

It’s not okay,

 

And I’m leaving us here tonight,

Under the moon and the star lights,

I know it’s not so clear, but I can’t care,

It’s just something that I must do,

The candle has nearly burned out,

I don’t wanna be here when it does,

With lost trust, and feelings that go nowhere,

 

Don’t believe I haven’t fought through the rain, but it was way too much to bare,

I wanted to be here, but the pain is too much inside,

And I cannot go through the same shit,

I just cannot do it,

So fragmented, I wouldn’t wish this on my perfect enemy,

 

I’m gone before you, Isn’t that what I’m supposed to do,

Be the first to walk out the door,

Not able to take anymore,

 

I know you said you could handle me,

I was never sure,

I’m not that pretty, not when you’re let inside,

I have these scars on me,

They make me run and hide,

And I told you, but that didn’t stop you,

What a warning, and now we’re just a blur,