Disconnected

Disconnected

By Shaire Blythe

Friday, June 29, 2018

I can’t seem to get my head out of my ass to see what’s going on

Trying to place me at my best, apply my potential

What good am I if I can’t be the me I’m supposed to be

I’ve seen it all, I had enough

Still I want to produce love

It never seems I can reach the finish line

I’m sorry

I’ve taken off and left you

Might seem I’ve abandoned

But I know me

At least the one I used to be

Always worried about this shitty world

It’s upsetting

So I’ve disconnected

And I’m sorry

I can’t count the tabs that spring in my head

I have a million thoughts all the time

It gives me anxiety

I try to ease my own mind

Without the brilliance of toxicity

My own natural high

Don’t need smoke to reach the clouds

Or that drink to make me confident

I’ve escaped once before

I freed my broken chains

I know I can do it once more

Look down and spread my wings

Don’t take me personal

I’m a walking contradiction

Think you have seen all of me

I stay in between dimensions