Infinity

By Shaire Blythe

Friday, January 22, 2016

Infinity

In one place I stay and lay, but I can breathe

Lost up in my thoughts, what you promised me

Like have you really forgotten you said you loved me

And how you wanted to give me a diamond ring, and even your legacy

Did You release those words cause they were only said a few weeks ago?

And you were truly my home, my safe place, comfort zone 

And I never felt this way on my own

You showed me and you said to me so much that made me a queen on a throne

It wasn't easy, I had my walls up so high

But you told me to believe in you and let them go

To feel, really feel and go with the flow

There was no wrong way

And you were doing the same

Where did the change come?

I mean, I saw the changes 

I felt you changing

That's when I would question 

And you told me to question 

You would be a man, step up and make me secure

We could get through this, we were supposed to get through this

I believed

You were more than a lover, I saw you as my best friend 

That's what I really cherished

We said that we were best friends 

All the rest were just bonuses

They say your love should be your best friend 

We've opened up to each other, more than any other

More good than bad, and we were supposed to last till infinity 

That's what you sent me

Till infinity

That's what you gave me

You said that you needed things, things that I gave you

But now you want easy

That's what you've now run to

Okay, okay

Go ahead and go that way

Okay, okay 

Maybe another day

Okay, okay

You say that you're happy

But we know that our connection is once in a lifetime 

And I was fully there

Don't act like I wasn't

That moment on the balcony we shared

That was for certain when I knew that I loved you

Though it had already been said

And this is me letting go of the past, cause you've done the same

Those planned adventures, the plans for our future, all the hell and good that we've been through, must burn in the flames

Cause if I don't let them go, I won't release my hold on you

I'll stay lost in my confusion, all of it's useless cause no answers will come my way

I'll never be the same

I gave myself with caution

Yet still feel like you're one of my soulmates

How does one let that go?

Just carry on, and keep their head high?

When you know, you know, you know

Said that I brought you peace

Said I brought you happiness

Changed you for a better man

Was that all I was meant for?

My soul feels incomplete 

When you just laid with me, I felt warm

You saved me from the cold

Fell in love with your eyes, could gaze into them all the time

Just seeing you made me smile, uncontrollably 

Was it all for nothing or truly something?

Don't say give me time

We both know what that means

In fact, we've discussed so many things that you're now doing

That you said were red flags, all the bs from other men

But that's the one thing, they never were men, only pretending 

Well I'm not pretending 

I'm stronger than that

Till infinity