In My Head

By Shaire Blythe

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

 

In My Head

 

I gotta keep telling myself that I’m not going to die,

That soon this will be over, I will survive,

 

Keep repeating, but my heart is breaking,

I don’t believe a word I’m thinking,

 

And it always stays in my head,

It’s one of those things that cannot be shared,

It makes me feel stupid, nothing but useless,

Why can’t I go on,

 

Take a deep breath,

A few tears, I shed,

I can’t think of nothing else,

My mind is stuck, it’s not good for my health,

 

All the bad times, playing and I don’t grasp why I tried,

I’m beat by every fight,

 

Guess that’s what happens when the pendulum keeps swinging,

You’re given no air,

 

Stuck here anticipating a gift bigger than this,

But I’ve been handed stones my entire life,

 

They keep on coming, they even start to throw them,

And I’m not all right, as I sit and cry,